3rd December

It's turned into a nice day.

Woke up yet again around 4am. It could well have been 3.30am but I couldn't bring myself to look at the clock. I got out of bed at 5am and had a bath. At work just before 7am. Had soup and bread for breakfast and made lunch, brown rice with mackerel and veggies. Snacked most of the morning on rice crackers. I was so tired and at the time it seemed like the natural thing to do. My energy levels really picked up after lunch. I think it was partly because M was a bit prickly this morning. I felt I'd pissed her off but she came round. She's got a lot on. J was her usual c*** self. S went really loud in the late afternoon. It was a very forced jollity. Odd. Left at 3pm. Picked up my test results from the GP. He hadn't ordered full bloods, the twat. Went to Sainsbury's to buy a few things, eating a small dark chocolate bar, 40g on the way home and then ended up snacking on half a pack of Finn Crisps with butter. Mad cos I wasn't satisfied until I made the tomatoes a la creme concoction that I love. I'll become more aware over time. Ended up taking my sucroguard late in the evening as I forgot to do it this morning. I'll have yogurt and nuts without any honey before going to bed in case the honey is making the sugar dip during the night either more inevitable or more extreme. Want to sleep.

Kept the girls entertained with my birthing wrist rest. I have a gel wrist rest at work and a while ago out of boredom, I put a hole in it but the contents didn't leak out as hoped for because its a jelly like gel substance in there. My attention turned back to the hole when I started thinking about fish in aquarium and wondering if I could push objects into the hole as I would see them through the clear cover. I pulled off a couple of mini pompoms from a card I had in my desk, one green and one red, and forced them into the gel with the end of a flattened out paperclip. The gel wasn't having it and although I could get them in a couple of centimeters, the gel eventually pushed them back out. It was brilliant. the first pompom was covered in a film as it pushed it's way out. The film then peeled back and the two pompoms appeared clean and dry on the surface of the wrist rest, as if they had been newly born. I repeated the trick and kept showing people. L said it takes a certain talent to be that disgusting.